So says the program that I learned to live my life in.We say this line in a reading everytime we meet. And I am saying it because I know I am not a saint, I am just doing what is right and what is the next thing to do.
My defination of alcoholic,(for me anyway):"someone who uses a substance because they think their (pretty darn good) life is intolerable...mostly because of their own inability to cope with life on life's terms."
In the 24 years I have been in recovery I have learned alot about life and myself. In writing this blog when I first wrote about my Mom, I realized that alot of the stuff that I found intolerable about her, was about me, not her. I never realized that half of the things in life that made me crazy happened because I was pretty crazy myself. I was lucky that I fell into a group of people who taught me how to live, how to rely on a Higher Power, what are the right things to do in most of lifes situations and even more so: that when I don't do the right thing, that is okay too....as long as I don't pick up something to numb myself out. Things that would have been inconvenient and intolerable to me are just acceptable; the problems that I have are pretty much the ones I cause myself, the rest are just life. I know it sounds simplistic but as we recovering alcoholics frequently say "Lets not louse this thing up;let's keep it simple." I am so darn lucky!
So I know this for sure,that if the 2 guys that came up with all this weren't Saints,then just taking care of Mom doesn't make me one either.
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