Things I'd never do

I always had this list of things I would never do: stop exercising, own horses and not have time to ride them, let my hair go natural, drive an old car...and on and on. Of course you know that as I say this, I have all ready succumbed.

If one has agreed to be a caregiver, even though I never thought about this, you will learn to accept doing everything that you thought you could never ever do. There is no one thing that is a deal breaker. Somehow these things have made a stronger, more tolerant person, I am amazed at myself.

Beyond the not yelling or physically harming those that I am annoyed with, beyond the ear wax, denture cream, briefs, hearing aids, nudity, toe nail clipping...there loomed bathroom clean ups, bodily fluids and so on. This is not meant to be a gross you out blog...so enough said. Just let it suffice that God is a great joker: after freaking out at a bathroom beyond my worst imagination and my Mom looking tiny, frail and pale: I prayed that when or if I had another chance, I could be kind and patient, and unbothered. That Great Joker in the heavens offered me a recurring chance for amends for over two weeks. You know what, I did it, I can do it, I can do anything.

That is why I am writing about this, because it is amazing what anyone can do, if they need to. Never say never, because you just limit yourself...(not about the not doing the things that I need to do, I am not proud of that). I am proud of what I can do and what I will do, if and when I must.