Early on when we signed with Hospice of the Valley, one of the nurses or social workers mentioned that at some point I might need to think of moving my Mother so that I could enjoy just"being her daughter". I feel like I am nearing that point but how do I every make that transition? It would be a huge change and I worry that she would feel discarded. I know I would feel incredibly guilty.
On the other hand, my day,when I don't have a caregiver, is reduced to taking Mom to the bathroom and making meals. I am truly feeling like I have lost myself. In addition, I am resentful and impatient. Confused and sad.
Could I be cruel enough to send her away and thereby changing my role from worn out caregiver to loving daughter? I have no idea how anyone makes these kinds of decisions. I wish I knew.
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