In my quest to find things that re-store me to me (as per new bible Passages for Caregivers). I signed up to take a Souls in Transition class. I didn't realize that the class would be taught by a medium, who communicates with the other side and also helps police find missing people. Two of my friends accompanied me to the class. It was a varied group of people, some were health care workers, some hospice volunteers, parents of murdered children, caregivers who had lost friends and family. The class itself was taught by a lovely and nationally known woman, who I realized later, reminds me alot of Kristen Chenowith.
One of the basic things that she addressed was why some souls seem to linger on,long past the time that even their doctors would have deemed possible. Why? According to our teacher, there are often a number of reasons; she told an amazing story of a woman in a coma who couldn't let go until her brother showed up,she didn't want him to feel guilty about not being there to say good-bye. So often there is a need for the dying to complete something;sometimes there is a transitioning between this physical world and the next:alot of going back and forth and sometimes the people on this plane are unwilling to let go.
As I was telling my sister about the class, I came to the realization that I am unwilling to let my Mom go. Even after some really hard days;after times that I am exhausted beyond belief;being back at this time to daily bed linen changing, washing and sometimes disposing of; after answering the same question over and over; and after taking her to the bathroom over and over.......I still can't imagine my life without her at this point. At some level, according to the teacher,her soul knows that....my soul has made that clear to hers. Do I believe this??? Well, I do believe that I am unwilling to let go and that shocks the heck out of me.
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